The Fat Guy Inside

Several weeks ago, I decided to be my 1997 self. And I'm so happy that I am slowly going to that direction. Just yesterday, I saw my self shed 30 pounds from mid-November. Great huh?!

My heaviest was around 270 pounds. I could not close the buttons of my jeans. That was depressing. I wanted to buy clothes but only a few would fit me.

This wasn't right anymore, so I started to avoid eating excessively. I started out eating only when I go hungry. This was habit forming, until I was gaining momentum. Last week, I started to exercise (finally). Just a bit of walking here and there. It felt great! Eating stepped from the limelight. Getting healthy is what now I am eyeing. To be more specific, I wanted to look better than be healthy (doesn't sound right huh? i thought so too).

Everyday, I visualize myself being that same boy who can bench press 140 pound barbell. I visualize myself receiving glances from people I pass by. Hahaha. Ridiculous, but it works. I wanted to be attractive again. Wow, I sound like a man going through a mid-life crisis. Well, anyway, I wanted to feel good about myself so I can be a good vibe to everyone. I spent more than half of my life being this fat guy, and I'm so tired of being one. I want to be sexy, hot and wanted. Maybe after i experience all of this, then, I can be the fat guy again.

Until next blog entry regarding fitness - because i know that this fat guy inside would rear its ugly head from time to time.

Solitary Walks

The weather at the start of 2014 is fantastic! I can live in this weather for life.

And it's the time of the year again. My life, as i have observed, has been cyclical. Every first quarter of the year, I normally love to walk by myself and hate driving.

So, by choice, I commute. I enjoy looking at people I pass by and i ride with in the shuttle. Sometimes, I make up stories with some of the persons i ride with in the shuttle.

I feel happy walking by myself, even if it means walking from SM Bicutan to our home.  But at the same time, there are still feelings of loneliness inside while I do this. Hundreds of memories of failures, thoughts of what should have been/what i could have done/what might have been still haunt me from time to time while I tread this memorable 2-kilometre way. Addiction to sadness might just be a real thing for me.

BTW - the whole word is colder lately and is making a record. So much for doomsday climate change huh?!

 

2013 - THE YEAR THAT WAS

Physical - not much major events occurred like heart palpitations, hypoglycemic attacks. however, i was at my heaviest during the months of july to november. i weighed around 270 pounds! my pants won't close, i feel like shit every morning (acid reflux). My endocrinologist warned me. I should lose weight since I'm a high risk candidate for liver cirrhosis.
Mid-November was a turn around for me. I didn't eat as much as i did. Most of the time, I resisted almost all food-related temptations in the office and at home. Turning point was when the clothes I'm planning to wear in a friend's wedding would not fit. Suddenly, I wanted to be healthier and longer, look better and feel better.
Outlook for next year is much much better.

Career - nothing much to ask for. Although I don't have what others call a dream job, I'm happy to have one. Work environment got so much better this year compared to the hell years that were 2012 and 2011.

Travel - So far 2013 was, by far, the best year. I got to travel to Australia and to Davao (locally).

Family - my ever growing family got a lot bigger after my son, TeeVee, was born last August. I made a promise that I will stop making babies after this (haha).

Friends - made a few friends this 2013. This year proved to me that first impressions don't last.

Education - almost had myself enrolled in a cooking class due from the need of cooking healthy but edible food. But time did not permit me to push through with my plans.


All in all, 2013 was a good year in material terms. I hope in 2014 I'll get the complete package.